Friday, August 17, 2012

Broken

When things don't go the way I want in my life I tend to believe that I am not enough. My perspective on many events in my life reinforce this core belief. My natural tendency when I get to this place of pain is to turn inward, ruminate until I can't stand it anymore, and then distract myself with mindless activity. Instead, this time when I got to that point, I decided to worship. Through that step of faithfulness God has shown up and reminded me that I am enough, and though I may not see evidence in this life, I can trust that in Him I am enough. I was enough for Him to send His Son to die. I am enough for him to call me into relationship with Himself. If I am never enough for any person it is nothing for I am enough for Him.  My fear of doing this stressful life alone is not of God for He says "'I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,' so that we confidently say, 'The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What will man do to me?" I need community and I love people, but the only one whom I must look to is God Almighty.

This song speaks to me every time!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Trembling at His Word

Isaiah 66:2 "For my hands made all these things, thus all these things came into being," declares the Lord. "But to this one I will look, to him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My word."

I was really struggling the other night with consistency in my walk with the Lord. I desire to spend time with him each day, but not enough to actually put it into action often times. As I was listening to a sermon by Francis Chan and reading through the Word this verse struck me, especially the last part. God looks upon those who tremble at His Word. I was thinking through the Bible and how when God shows up and people experience Him in a tangible, audible, sensory way they fall to their knees and tremble at His words. I have always thought how easy faith must be for them. Sure, if I experienced the audible voice of God, I would surely bow down and tremble as well. However, the Lord revealed to me that I have been given His words in an even more powerful way, through the Bible. The people in the Bible who experienced his audible voice got a rare dose of His words. I have been given the opportunity to hear from God at any and all times. What a blessing! I should have faith greater than those who are in the Bible. I take such advantage of my ability to experience the Word of God. It should not be a chore to dig into the Bible, but a time of trembling daily before the Lord, for He is the one who holds my life in his hands.